My Adorable daughter Ada will turn 2 in November, but I consider her 2 already - partly because [touch wood] cognitively she is behaving like one. Well what it means for a scientist mom like me? Well a lot... It means, I cant work at home (she always wants attention), I cant go do exercise, I can't do yoga, meditation, I am bruised at many places - without noticing, I have an ear infection - hurting bad but cant see a doctor, my personal grooming is in a new low, my house is unkempt, I cant pursue my hobbies, write papers and the list goes on and on. Well, then why people want children? The only reason is probably children grow and the change that happens to them over a period of time and to watch that is priceless... Nothing can actually replace that happiness. Not even the activities I mentioned that I am missing out could replace that.
My life now revolves around my little one. Whether she has enough supplies at home, whether she is fed on time, taken to school on time, dressed on time, taken to park, whether or not she is taught new things daily, whether she is shown books and good activities. Once I pick her up while on my way back from office, I dont even get few minutes to change, because she will constantly ask for me. I get a lot of happiness when she kind of misses me :) :) I check my face book only after she sleeps but that has now stretched to 9.30 PM and I am also down by then. I cant read the news paper nor can I read a book or watch TV. I have not done my eyebrows in months, I have to buy clothes for me. I dont remember when I had breakfast last time at home. I barely manage a bite or so in the night.
Now I am in a lowest personal mental health. I get irritable a lot. Sometimes she constantly cries for something and that drains me out. Most of the time her crying spell ends after she screamed enough, rolling on the floor, then I go and lift her and hug her... Earlier I believed the adorable 2 year olds that were fun to play with, now taking care of her demands is not fun enough. It needs lots of patience and maturity. Till now I have not spanked her, but cant tell how long I can refrain from that.
Sharing a recent video of her :)
My life now revolves around my little one. Whether she has enough supplies at home, whether she is fed on time, taken to school on time, dressed on time, taken to park, whether or not she is taught new things daily, whether she is shown books and good activities. Once I pick her up while on my way back from office, I dont even get few minutes to change, because she will constantly ask for me. I get a lot of happiness when she kind of misses me :) :) I check my face book only after she sleeps but that has now stretched to 9.30 PM and I am also down by then. I cant read the news paper nor can I read a book or watch TV. I have not done my eyebrows in months, I have to buy clothes for me. I dont remember when I had breakfast last time at home. I barely manage a bite or so in the night.
Now I am in a lowest personal mental health. I get irritable a lot. Sometimes she constantly cries for something and that drains me out. Most of the time her crying spell ends after she screamed enough, rolling on the floor, then I go and lift her and hug her... Earlier I believed the adorable 2 year olds that were fun to play with, now taking care of her demands is not fun enough. It needs lots of patience and maturity. Till now I have not spanked her, but cant tell how long I can refrain from that.
Sharing a recent video of her :)
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