On 30th June, we have had a Chakra workshop by my favorite yoga teacher at the Gratitude Yoga center Mansfield. It was incredible and I wish to share my experience in one of my later blogs. However, just thinking of giving a glimpse of what I learned. One of our chakras are responsible for letting go of things. We have seen people in our lives, who can't let go of things easily, they hold everything onto them - be it people, objects, relationships, grudges, feelings etc. This is an extreme form. We take up a quiz in our Chakra class and it asks few questions subtly, that brings about an insight about our ability to let go of things. Although I was not very strong in that chakra, but nevertheless I scored well. Now in real life example, I wanted to try and see where I really stand for in 'letting go' department.
I was holding onto this job for this long, that was a big part of my problem. I always thought how it will be to let go of it. Well, in March I just said I am leaving, it felt little bit bad, but not nearly as bad as I would have expected. In April, we almost sold our house, in May our bed was sold. Before all that I imagined how it will feel when the bed is gone, but then boom it is really gone and felt nothing at all to sleep on the floor. I did not miss it at all. In May, my favorite car was sold, I was surprised that I did not miss it as much as I would have thought. Then slowly our sofa, other furniture, TV and most of the garden tools are gone. The last thing to go was the fridge - of course that should have been the order. We let everything go so easily, so looked like the Chakra workshop was right. Today finally is the day, when the new owner of our house evicted us around 10 AM. It was creepy, I wanted to finish my tea, pack everything and go before even he showed up, but he showed before we did any of those things. As he sat, we took each of our items from kitchen soap to kitchen cups to bathroom soaps one by one. That was kind of pressure, and the result is; we have left some of our essential items. Did we let that go easy? Well it hurt to be homeless even though for few hours. And today is July the 4th and we have hotel booking from 2 PM onwards and we were not sure what to do from 10-2PM with milk and other easy to spoil items under the hot summer inside a hot car. We slowly moved with our full car to the hotel. There, they said the rooms are full, we hopped to another hotel and the same fate. Now, it really felt like we were homeless. Finally at about 12.30 PM we reached at a place where the hotel cost was significantly higher, but they had rooms. Finally we checked in. This is a 120 sq. ft room. and until10 AM today we were living in a 2400 sq ft house and now it is 20 times reduced space. How does it feel like? We feel shrunken and shoved in a small place. We are not devastated, but it feels strange. We still have to work on our let go part, to keep going with the ups and downs of life...
I was holding onto this job for this long, that was a big part of my problem. I always thought how it will be to let go of it. Well, in March I just said I am leaving, it felt little bit bad, but not nearly as bad as I would have expected. In April, we almost sold our house, in May our bed was sold. Before all that I imagined how it will feel when the bed is gone, but then boom it is really gone and felt nothing at all to sleep on the floor. I did not miss it at all. In May, my favorite car was sold, I was surprised that I did not miss it as much as I would have thought. Then slowly our sofa, other furniture, TV and most of the garden tools are gone. The last thing to go was the fridge - of course that should have been the order. We let everything go so easily, so looked like the Chakra workshop was right. Today finally is the day, when the new owner of our house evicted us around 10 AM. It was creepy, I wanted to finish my tea, pack everything and go before even he showed up, but he showed before we did any of those things. As he sat, we took each of our items from kitchen soap to kitchen cups to bathroom soaps one by one. That was kind of pressure, and the result is; we have left some of our essential items. Did we let that go easy? Well it hurt to be homeless even though for few hours. And today is July the 4th and we have hotel booking from 2 PM onwards and we were not sure what to do from 10-2PM with milk and other easy to spoil items under the hot summer inside a hot car. We slowly moved with our full car to the hotel. There, they said the rooms are full, we hopped to another hotel and the same fate. Now, it really felt like we were homeless. Finally at about 12.30 PM we reached at a place where the hotel cost was significantly higher, but they had rooms. Finally we checked in. This is a 120 sq. ft room. and until10 AM today we were living in a 2400 sq ft house and now it is 20 times reduced space. How does it feel like? We feel shrunken and shoved in a small place. We are not devastated, but it feels strange. We still have to work on our let go part, to keep going with the ups and downs of life...
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